Radiation Level: 60i (actually 59.94, or 60 × 1000/1001)
Listening To: Suco De Tangerina by the Beastie Boys
I just watched the rough cut of my short film. I have so many emotions going on inside me, this is such new territory for me. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been watching rough cuts of my work for decades. Only, I was an actress in most of them. Sometimes just the writer. But never the director.
Writing and directing something feels very strange. Listening to people say my dialogue makes me oddly uncomfortable. I know that sounds weird coming from a screenwriter, but it’s extremely intimate, like someone’s looking at me without my clothes on. I feel responsible for their experience as they watch, sort of like a tour guide, taking foreigners on a trip into my mind.
I guess that’s what filmmakers do, we take people on visual and emotional journeys and hope (and pray) they enjoy the ride. It’s a new kind of vulnerability for me.
That said, it’s also a lot of fun! I’ve experienced new highs and joys that I haven’t experienced before. I’m going to do my best to make this little film that I shot on shoestrings and favors as good as it can be.
Thanks to everyone who helped me from the bottom of my heart:)